You = I

Anxiety + low blood sugar + too much caffeine = near-panic attack.
That's not too difficult to imagine, now is it?
So why did you do it?
Sure, the anxiety isn't exactly under your control. That's sorta the nature of the beast. But as for exacerbating the anxiety by not eating and by drinking WAY too much coffee, you knew better. At least on some level. So why did you do it?

Because you're self-destructive, that's why.
What the fuck?