Follow Up

Food + fairly low dosage of Xanax = much calmer state.

Okay, so I no longer feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin or go running into the night trying to somehow elude this nutcase I've become.

Shit. Anxiety was not what I was primarily thinking of addressing when I decided I wanted to put my neuroses down on electronic paper. Really, it was more the psychological prison I seem to have constructed for myself within my own brain.

Well, I'm sure there will be plenty of opportunity to explore that.

I HATE feeling like this.

You = I

Anxiety + low blood sugar + too much caffeine = near-panic attack.
That's not too difficult to imagine, now is it?
So why did you do it?
Sure, the anxiety isn't exactly under your control. That's sorta the nature of the beast. But as for exacerbating the anxiety by not eating and by drinking WAY too much coffee, you knew better. At least on some level. So why did you do it?

Because you're self-destructive, that's why.
What the fuck?